4th l o s t s o u l ~ [Voice]

[mmmfilletofsoul]

[The end of the event wasn't so much a relief for Cheyenne as it was the single most confusing thing to ever happen to her. Never mind that she had been so much younger. Never mind that for two weeks, the hunger was gone. Never mind that she saw colors and shapes and people and her friends and herself in the same way others have always seen. The main thing on her mind was how she had acted.]

[So many of her previous actions just... didn't make sense. Considering a child acts mostly based on their emotions, this shouldn't have been a surprise. Even though she had those emotions, and she can somewhat remember how they felt, she still doesn't know what they mean. Why was she in pain when she wasn't physically hurt? Why was she laughing? Why did seeing others smile make her feel so happy?]

[Eventually, she just gives up trying to make sense of it. Her emotions right now were hard enough without trying to sort out those of a child!]

My apologies for not addressing this sooner, but I would like to extend my graditude to those who took care of me when I was not myself during the last experiment.

I suppose these experiments are the sort of things one must become accustomed to while living in this village. This was the first one to have affected me in such a manner. However, if a similar extreme change should happen again, I do not believe I would mind. It was rather interesting, after all, being able to see the village through new eyes.

[A pause.]

Although, perhaps for the sake of those who were far less fortunate, it would be best to hope that such an experiment does not make a reappearance.

Comments

[ voice ]

[hakoiri.livejournal.com]

See the village through new eyes, you say? That must've been quite the experience, indeed.

You're doing all right, then, Cheyenne?

[ voice ]

[illusional]

It was, yes. I meant that statement to be quite literal, as my usual method of vision was replaced with the same sort most humans are accustomed to. Although I cannot say I can recall everything with completely clarity, I find that I am now able to put a face to quite a few of the souls I see around the village.

[ voice ]

[hakoiri.livejournal.com]

Amazing . . . How was it, based on what you can recall? I take it this is about the first time you've been able to see around you on this sort of physical level.

[Voice]

[illusional]

Hm... I find it a bit difficult to describe, namely due to the fact that my vision was not all that had changed. Everything about myself was quite different. To put it simply, I was no longer an illusionist, and didn't seem to recall ever being one.

[Voice]

[hakoiri.livejournal.com]

. . . Meaning, you were more like us, and your memories were morphed to suit that change. I believe I understand where you're coming from. It didn't seem to be a very uncommon alteration.

It's odd how one can be so different while remaining as oneself.

[Voice]

[illusional]

...I would not go so far to say that they were morphed, as I believe the memories I had were ones I used to possess. The form I had taken was one I have once had.

I was not born an illusionist, after all.

[Voice]

[hakoiri.livejournal.com]

Ah, so . . . you regressed, in a word.

I had no clue. I'd assumed you were always what you are, the idea of becoming it hadn't occurred to me.

[Voice]

[de_bel_survivor]

'Through new eyes'? Is that literal?

[Voice]

[illusional]

Quite literal, as a matter of fact. I have been told these journals show an image of the person speaking, yes?

[She brings her hand to the lower edge of her blindfold.] You may notice that I wear a blindfold over my eyes. Usually, I do not use them to see.

[Voice]

[de_bel_survivor]

Yeah. The journals have a small camera on them to record the image.

[He looks at the image, curiously.] I can see them. Since you don't use them, do you see things with something else?

[Voice]

[illusional]

I see though sense. My kind is capable of sensing the souls of living creatures around us. Anything without a soul tends to be a bit more difficult to see unless it is moving in some way.

[Voice]

[de_bel_survivor]

Seeing by sensing souls...it must be quite different from actually using your eyes.

[Voice]

[illusional]

It is certainly far more convenient for a creature such as myself. As every soul is unique, I need only see a creature once to commit their appearance to memory. Although, were it not for the fact that I had also been changed in many other ways, I believe I would have found it rather difficult to function without my usual vision.

[Voice]

[de_bel_survivor]

[Wonders what his soul would look like for a short moment.] That sounds very interesting.

It's not just your eyes? What else has changed?

[Voice/Filtered from Legato]

[goldenglasses]

I think it's alright for you to have enjoyed the experiment. It's kinda nice to know some good came from it. [Vash is doing his best to find the silver lining in all of this.]

[Voice/Filtered from Legato]

[illusional]

Some good, yes... [A pause.]

Vash, when we spoke over the journal, was that how you normally look?

[Voice/Filtered from Legato]

[goldenglasses]

[He quiet for a moment.] Yes, that is how I normally look, but not how I usually act. So my eyes may have looked a little meaner.

[Voice/Filtered from Legato]

[illusional]

I have already surmised that you were acting in an odd manner due to the experiment. And to be quite honest, I must admit that I have a hard time recalling whether your eyes looked "mean" or not, seeing as I have no idea what that would look like compared to eyes that look "kind".

[Smile.] Regardless, I am glad to have gotten the opportunity to see you.

[Voice/Filtered from Legato]

[goldenglasses]

I'm glad too, but I still wish I had been acting like my normal self back then.

[Voice/Filtered from Legato]

[illusional]

I find myself wishing the same. Seeing as I was no longer an illusionist during those weeks, the sudden change back was rather... jarring, to say the least.

[Voice/Filtered from Legato]

[goldenglasses]

Are you alright? [You haven't eaten in two weeks, but then again you've been in a different body for two weeks.]

[Voice]

[oda-hates-me.livejournal.com]

[There you are... and yes, you definitely sound like the Cheyenne he's familiar with]

It's never any trouble taking care of little ladies, Cheyenne-chan~!

[Though he'll miss the more excitable version]

And you're alright?

[Voice]

[illusional]

I suppose I am all right now, yes. Although I am finding it a bit difficult to recall exactly what has occurred these past two weeks, given how radically changed my behavior had become.

[Voice] oh god I hope you don't mind how late this is ;;

[oda-hates-me.livejournal.com]

Yeah, you were pretty... different. [to put it lightly]

But I can fill in any blanks you might have!

[Voice] Don't mind at all! No worries! <3

[illusional]

It is not so much that there are thing I cannot remember. Rather, I cannot understand why I did the things I did. It is all rather confusing. [Going from having many emotions to having no emotions will do that to you.]