4th l o s t s o u l ~ [Voice]
Dec. 8th, 2010 02:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mmmfilletofsoul[The end of the event wasn't so much a relief for Cheyenne as it was the single most confusing thing to ever happen to her. Never mind that she had been so much younger. Never mind that for two weeks, the hunger was gone. Never mind that she saw colors and shapes and people and her friends and herself in the same way others have always seen. The main thing on her mind was how she had acted.]
[So many of her previous actions just... didn't make sense. Considering a child acts mostly based on their emotions, this shouldn't have been a surprise. Even though she had those emotions, and she can somewhat remember how they felt, she still doesn't know what they mean. Why was she in pain when she wasn't physically hurt? Why was she laughing? Why did seeing others smile make her feel so happy?]
[Eventually, she just gives up trying to make sense of it. Her emotions right now were hard enough without trying to sort out those of a child!]
My apologies for not addressing this sooner, but I would like to extend my graditude to those who took care of me when I was not myself during the last experiment.
I suppose these experiments are the sort of things one must become accustomed to while living in this village. This was the first one to have affected me in such a manner. However, if a similar extreme change should happen again, I do not believe I would mind. It was rather interesting, after all, being able to see the village through new eyes.
[A pause.]
Although, perhaps for the sake of those who were far less fortunate, it would be best to hope that such an experiment does not make a reappearance.
[So many of her previous actions just... didn't make sense. Considering a child acts mostly based on their emotions, this shouldn't have been a surprise. Even though she had those emotions, and she can somewhat remember how they felt, she still doesn't know what they mean. Why was she in pain when she wasn't physically hurt? Why was she laughing? Why did seeing others smile make her feel so happy?]
[Eventually, she just gives up trying to make sense of it. Her emotions right now were hard enough without trying to sort out those of a child!]
My apologies for not addressing this sooner, but I would like to extend my graditude to those who took care of me when I was not myself during the last experiment.
I suppose these experiments are the sort of things one must become accustomed to while living in this village. This was the first one to have affected me in such a manner. However, if a similar extreme change should happen again, I do not believe I would mind. It was rather interesting, after all, being able to see the village through new eyes.
[A pause.]
Although, perhaps for the sake of those who were far less fortunate, it would be best to hope that such an experiment does not make a reappearance.
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Date: 2010-12-13 06:42 am (UTC)[Voice]
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Date: 2010-12-17 07:53 am (UTC)However, during those two weeks, I was instead a creature whose actions are entirely based on its emotions, much like most humans. As such, I cannot fathom the reasoning behind most of what I did previously. There was no logic to it.
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Date: 2010-12-17 06:17 pm (UTC)Not a lot of people can control their emotions or understand it completely, since you feel them, not think.
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Date: 2010-12-20 08:55 am (UTC)Regardless, I have given up attempting to sort out the events of these past two weeks. Perhaps that is for the best.